Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Is Poppa in Heaven Now? Is He an Angel?

Early this morning we got a call from Granny letting us know Poppa passed away over night. I woke up Mike B. and let him know. He dressed, I made coffee, and after a quick breakfaast and cup of coffee, Mike B. he went off to see his mother. I began my regular morning ritual of feeding the dog and preparing the kids for school.

When the girls got up and did not see Daddy, they wanted to know where he was. Mike and I had agreed not to say anything to them until they got home. But well...

Eva: Where's Daddy?
Me: He had to go and help Granny
Eva: Why didn't he come home? He was gone all night?
Me: No honey, he came home, but then he had to go and help Granny again this morning.
Eva: Oh

There is a pause, Rose is picking the marshmallows out of the cereal and sticking them under her lip to pretend she is either an animal or a vampire.

Eva: Is Poppa in Heaven now?
Me: Yes honey he is.
Eva: Is he watching us from Heaven?
Me: Yes Honey, he's looking down at you and Rose and smiling. 
Rose: Is he an angel now?
Me: Yes.

Another pause from both of them this time. Rose comes around to the other side of the kitchen island and looks up out the window.

Me: Rose? What are you looking at?
Rose: Heaven
Me: Oh, can you see Poppa?
Rose: Yes...oh...actually no...where is he?
Me: Well, he's way up high honey, so you may not see him.
Eva: But he can see us? How?
Me: Because when you go to Heaven you get superpowers so you can see all the people you love.
Rose: Cool! Goodbye Poppa.

Rose returns to her stool and I return to the morning ritual of trying to get them to eat breakfast so we can get ready for school.

To My Father-in-law
It has been a long journey Jim and I know you are in a better place now. Thank you for being a part of the girls lives...despite Rose going through a weird phase of being afraid of you at first. Granny's will not be the same without your boisterous presence. Say hello to my father while you're up there.

4 comments:

Edward said...

Like so many thing....your children will keep him present in your life!

Sending you love and light as you celebrate his life and memory!!

Anonymous said...

He lives always in your and your children's hearts and the memories of all who knew him.
I am so very sorry for you all in this loss.
Old Ca Grandmother

Megan said...

I am so sorry for your loss, wrap yourselves in your children's love and each others . xxx Meg

Rhy and Drew said...

I'm sorry for your family's loss, the way you handled it with your girls was very touching. I'll be thinking of you all.